I wonder if I am doing the right thing at all.
There was once this person whom I thought was a friend of mine, only for me to conclude now, that it was sooo far from the truth. It is a pity that we can invest so much time, money and effort on a person only to realize that what you had was not real after all.
And I am not talking about a marriage relationship, but the more I think about it, the more I am lead to believe that the analogy applies as well.
Looking back, all I could see is, it had always been a one way thing. And isn't friendship, like most relationships a give and take thing?
It is weird because after this person said all sorts of nasty things to me via sms, after she said she will stay away and not talk to me, she could say hi to me as if nothing happened. It's not that I am holding any grudge against her, I don't. It is just that in human relationships, you can't just play with people and their emotions and treat them as if they are objects.
I don't think you can just leave without having to explain what caused the disappearance and expect things to be the same where you left them. To be honest, it made me think that maybe she needed something from me - a letter to draft, a plane ticket to charge to my credit card, time to listen to her gripes about life! Who knows what she needed! However, I am through with her being user-friendly (people who use others for their own benefit) and I have more important things to do than listen to her complaints.
For someone who place so much value on friendships, I am a bit surprised with myself. Afterall, I am one person who would do anything in my power as long as it is legal, for a friend. Maybe I am wrong. Maybe we were never really friends in the first place and I was just assuming that we were.
I am not sure if it is the right thing to do at all, afterall, we go to the same church. It will take a miracle for me to want to make friends with her at all. Thank God for the multiple services! Hehehe! It is not that I am avoiding her, I just have nothing to say to her. Most importantly, thank God He heals all wounds. In the meantime, let's just wait and see how the coming days unfold.
So, what does that make me?
